Grey’s Anatomy Season 13 – Review of episode 18 ‘Be Still, My Soul’

Written by M.

“When my mother’s Alzheimer’s got bad,
I was going through her bills, and I found a notepad.
Written on it were the words
‘Important tell Meredith not to’
And that was it.
She never finished that sentence.
Tell Meredith not to what?
Not to drink too much?
Not to pet strange dogs?
Not to give her heart away?
Not to leave the sprinklers on?
We didn’t exactly talk a lot in those days.
I regret that.
I wish we had.”

On Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Willow once said “Love makes you do the wacky”. I believe that to be true. But when you are about to lose love, or just lost love, you get even crazier. And this episode showed just that. Maggie turned into a scarier form of herself. Not only will she not listen to anyone when it comes to her mother’s treatment, she takes her mother with her on this path.

When I lose someone I care deeply about, I crawl into my shell, I stop talking. And when I do talk about it, it is to the people who share this loss with me. So I don’t know what it’s like to lash out at the people around you. I get it, but I don’t know it. And I wonder till what point do you accept the crazy? And at what point do you walk away?

Maggie shouting at Meredith “You don’t get it! You wouldn’t! Meredith, I love my mother enough not to say, ‘Screw it’, and throw her down a damn drain!” And then say to Richard, who is her biological father, “I just wish my dad was here”. Is this still acceptable? Deliberately hurting the people around you to make yourself feel better, at what point do we stop accepting that?

All and all I must say that Ellen Pompeo did a marvelous job on directing this episode. She has a bright future as a director. But please always give us a warning, so we have tissues ready to help us through the episodes.

“I think about my mom’s note all the time.
Tell Meredith not to…?
Not to cave?
Not to care?
Not to give up so easily?
Not to fall in love?
Not to have children? 
Not to tell a lie?
She left me wondering what to do, what not to do.
She left me knowing everything was up to me.
And me alone.
And she left me with no one to ask.
So I would decide what she meant to write.
‘Tell Meredith not to be afraid’
Goodbye, Mom.”


  • Will Meredith and Nathan ever get together?

Next week;

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